it's been a strange holiday season, but still a good one. my life is good. my family is healthy. and for the most part, we are all happy.
my dad called me today. i talk to him every week or so. this time he thought maybe i could start the new year off by talking to my mother. when he calls me, it makes me wonder if he says any of this to her.
he says i really hurt her by what i wrote on my blog.....yeah, well, life sucks sometimes and the truth hurts. he said he never imagined our family would be torn apart like this. i don't know....it's not like we were close and talked every day (or every month) anyway. there's really not much difference here.
he said if i decided to call her, to not mention that he called me and to just pretend it was all my idea. okay dad....what are you afraid of? honestly. or should i say honesty.
i write a post in which i am honest about my feelings.....my mother is hurt because i wrote the truth the way i see it, and my dad wants me to lie to my mother if i decide to call her. i'm getting a headache just trying to figure it all out.
i just keep coming back to.....if i hurt her so much, why didn't she pick up the phone and let me have it? why is she so mean spirited and petty? i'm sorry, she is the mom and i am the kid here. i don't want to go crawling back to make his life easier and her life seem right and perfect.
i suppose i am being selfish, but i bet my dad is not telling my mother to call me. he's never stood up to her, ever. so to make peace, he wants me to be nice and make the first step. I'm sorry dad, i don't want to. you married her. you get to live with her. no deal.
my dad called me today. i talk to him every week or so. this time he thought maybe i could start the new year off by talking to my mother. when he calls me, it makes me wonder if he says any of this to her.
he says i really hurt her by what i wrote on my blog.....yeah, well, life sucks sometimes and the truth hurts. he said he never imagined our family would be torn apart like this. i don't know....it's not like we were close and talked every day (or every month) anyway. there's really not much difference here.
he said if i decided to call her, to not mention that he called me and to just pretend it was all my idea. okay dad....what are you afraid of? honestly. or should i say honesty.
i write a post in which i am honest about my feelings.....my mother is hurt because i wrote the truth the way i see it, and my dad wants me to lie to my mother if i decide to call her. i'm getting a headache just trying to figure it all out.
i just keep coming back to.....if i hurt her so much, why didn't she pick up the phone and let me have it? why is she so mean spirited and petty? i'm sorry, she is the mom and i am the kid here. i don't want to go crawling back to make his life easier and her life seem right and perfect.
i suppose i am being selfish, but i bet my dad is not telling my mother to call me. he's never stood up to her, ever. so to make peace, he wants me to be nice and make the first step. I'm sorry dad, i don't want to. you married her. you get to live with her. no deal.
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